if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
lundi 31 août 2009 04:00
five years ago, i was locked out of my classroom by my classmates.
i managed to force my way back in but much to my dismay, they carried me up and threw me out of the class, and on the floor. that day i came home with a cracked hip and a broken heart.
since then i spent everyday soaking up in the fear of losing friends every time i made new ones. the fear of being alone.
this is one of the reason why poly has become such a disappointment to me. of how everyone sees each other not as a potential friend, but as a potential grade booster. of how when you comment like a bitch you are labeled a bitch immediately and not trusted by everyone else. of how you procrastinate a little more than the rest and you are labeled a slacker immediately and ostracized by everyone else.
i thought about khalisah again, and i wondered why was it that she didn't choose to believe me. was it because i appeared bitchy and procrastinated too much, that i do not possess any other positive attributes? was it because that i never worked hard enough to be a friend for her?
at the end of the long three years, i realized all the choices that i have made were regrets and stupid mistakes caused by hyper-sensitivity.
stupid aisyah ccaused me to emo. HAHAH! nevertheless, movies tomorrow! finally found myself a movie kaki, at long last. screw the needy people who always watch movie with their other half and forget about their own friends.
okay project hiatus is called off cause princess elizabeth loves me too much. HAHA! and blondee's annoyance level on msn got too much to handle.
amazing how two people came into my life so short and abruptly and changed so many things for me. so fine, from now onwards shall call them my secret lover and secret stalker.
so, thanks to my secret lover and secret stalker's annoyinggggggggly induced disturbance, i am back from project hiatus, which lasted a mere few hours. of which i spent sleeping.
i spent the entire day not eating and just sleeping, nowadays i just gag at anything i put in my mouth, unless im really very hungry. why huh, i used to be a bottomless pit.
i guess right now the pit is too full with emotions filled to the rim to have the appetite for anything at all.
but yes, listen to yous. i shall SMILE.
and secret lover, last warning. if you so much as to let your mind wonder off so much again i will ignore you for life okay. though i probably wouldn't bear to do that, but yeah, in the least let me know that you trust me? (:
this is what girls like to do, they see things they don't like to see, and they give only pessimistic views of themselves. just like weight.
you would have a girl who looks like skins and bones tell you that she is fat and when you try to talk her out of it she screams "you wouldn't understand!".
the thing is, girls just contradict their actions, they want you to understand but they prevent you from understanding. they tell you they do not long for anything, but frankly they do.
i will be going on a personal soul-searching, self-isolated hiatus. i shall continue to blog but will maintain unreachable via other methods. i am more happy for you than i am sad for myself.
YOU'VE GOT IT, HERE COMES THE HOLIDAYS! finally, exams are over. finally i would have tons of time to sleep eat and laze all over the place. FINALLY i can go and get my tan back at the pool.
and CINDY MY DAUGHTER, my phone's itching for your call! im ready for KBOX ANYTIME ANYWHERE! i am going to start my final year project next semester, i am going to get myself a new job, i am going to focus on my tuition kids and i am going to do a hell lot of stuffs!
so tell me, how to not love this day?! there would be so much time to do so much stuff that i had always rathered to do than SCHOOOOOOOL! so schooooooooooo shooooooooooooooo!
and right now, im off to town for a night of crazy dinner and movies! PLEASE LET ME HAVE MY APPETITE TONIGHT! just tonight!
and then back home at midnigght for my regular emo-ing session with my all time favourite. :D
okay, i am not sure if the picture portrays the feelings of being exposed, but it's kind of funny in a dumb way anyway.
so yes, am FEELING A LITTLE EXPOSED. i feel so naked now, all because of my own stupid mistakes.
scary how things can get rather unpredictable, especially when you least expect it. but i am hoping that no other information had been viewed, yet? mehh.
and i definitely hope i did not implicate anyone. once again, my forte for writing ambiguous shits.
Love asked, "Why do you still exist if I've already existed?"
Friendship replied, "To wipe away the tears when you left."
Well, i say :
One day, Friendship found Love.
Friendship asked, "Why do you always come after me?"
Love replied, "Because everyone's too blinded by their beliefs such that Love is often subjected to boundaries of gender, cultural, and even personalities. Because friendship doesn't have to be subjected to perfection like Love."
We were never blinded by love, because we chose what type of love we wanted.
losing my appetite can be rather disgusting sometimes. just like how i had the weird idea of mixing milk with mixed fruit juices.
i dont know, i can't taste anything anyway and i jjust don't have the craving for anything at all. dinner was my breakfast and also my lunch, and i didn't even eat much either. it's weird knowing that i can feel full before i even touch my three spoons' worth of rice in that tiny bowl. mehhh.
and yes, whilst im typing away im drinking my "milkshake" over here as well. it smells funny, tastes a little like sour milk and is definitely more precipitated than compared to the drink shown. and the bottomline is, i decided to drink this because i was thirsty.
i kind of missed the days back when i laughed at the slightest things, such as laughing at someone laughing. i know, weird and psychotic, but that was pretty much who i was and i probably enjoyed life that way much better.
to grow up can be such a bad thing, especially when you start to have things like infatuation and admiration. erk. bitter heart, bitter heart. tries to keep it all inside.
was damn annnoyed by the idiot who took his own sweet time climbing up the stairs. if he had moved any slower or had been more engaged in his retarded conversation with his friend, yeahh his butt would have been in my face.
seriously, its either you walk faster or you don't block the entire stairway when your butt is so bloody big. it's like this dude can go make a living or something from simply wiping the windscreens with his butt.
erk. bad day bad day.
from nearly getting my face wiped to having my hairband broken cause i was too nervous during my paper today and to getting a real tough paper. ARGH! zzzz.
at exactly four in the morning the skies just decided to cry in such melodramatic fashion.
i have been slacking for the entire day until i finally decided to settle down and do some decent studying at about one plus. and it has been me and almost lover on the repeat since. one day i am going to kill you for sending me this song.
as i closed the windows, i can feel the touch of the rain drops on my cheeks, just like how they would kiss the glass panels of the windows.
as the tears wash away the feeling of anxiety and exhaustion, do we all feel that sense of serenity? sometimes its not what keeps our mind clear that gives us peace, sometimes it really is just the way of which we view things that gives us that sense of serenity.
it's funny how we can love someone and seek ultimate possession whilst others are simply contented at heart to know that their loved one is simply happy, even if it tears them apart. but really, it's just how we see the world using our hearts and not just simply our eyes.
right now, i simply have that urge to run out into the rain and smell its tears with my heart.
i think the emoing has to stop. its making me more of a dumb blonde day by day.
and im getting more and more listless, and weird.
i turned on my computer earlier on and tried to listen to a song. with the ear piece stuck in my ears no sound came. i tried playing other sources of videos and songs, and still there was no sound. i tuned the volume to the maximum level and still, nothing.
the computer was turned on and off and on and off over and over again. still, nothing.
i was on the verge of panicking, for fear that my laptop has gone spoilt and crazy. and then, i tried unplucking and re-inserting the ear phones. only to realize that,
i wasn't wearing the ear piece that was plucked in to the computer. i was wearing another pair of ear piece.
i woke up this morning to a message asking if i was feeling better, thanks so much cause i really needed that.
and in case any of you guys are planning to look for someone to eat supper with, i think you would have to wait for some time before the bottomless pit is back in action.
i have officially lost my appetite for food and i feel nauseated every morning when i wake up and every night before i sleep. plus, i am currently on an unofficial curfew due to the 7th month.
can't wait for exams to end so i can just cuddle up in bed and while away.
Your fingertips across my skin The palm trees swaying in the wind Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies The sweetest sadness in your eyes Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street You took my hand and danced with me Images
And when you left you kissed my lips You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean I cannot drive the streets at night I cannot wake up in the morning Without you on my mind So you're gone and I'm haunted And I bet you are just fine Did I make it that easy To walk right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover Goodbye, my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long, my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should've known you'd bring me heartache Almost lovers always do
the human heart can be so protective sometimes. or do we call it pretentious?
i don't think you can call it true love when you can't even afford to bring yourself to trust the other party? was the serpent really more worthy of eve's trust than adam was?
it has been a long 36hours, and i made some decisions in the morning, and now i am further affirmed of my choice.
and i have been shocked by the unexpected. and really, i am at a lost and speechless as much as i try my best to not be disturbed by the knowledge of it all. i am proud of myself for not reacting badly.
and i just recalled that i have my fyp meeting at 10am later. damn it.
is perfection really what everyone pursues? is it something that is so desirable, just like how beauty can be so obsessively sought after?
did i mentioned that i watched UP! ?
well i plan to watch it again. it's really very touching and something different for me to think about. cause, it talks about the one thing that i would hate to have in life. of being all alone when you are old and viviana is really pissing me off acting crazy here in macdonalds.
ANYWAYS, as i was saying.
wait, now she is singing to the national anthem. and she said i sucked. then i told her she fucked. hahah, okay no. just wanted to hurl some profanities cause im damn dead tired.
let's not side track, shall we?
wait, before i continue, i must mention that spending the night in macdonalds studying with a lunatic can make you really very patient.
so back to the topic, yes there was this scene when Fredicksen was about to be sent off to the old folk's home, forced to leave his one and only accompaniment left. sighs.
i am so afraid of being alone and so afraid of being forgotten and left behind. and im not even in my twenties and i already add woes to my life like an old man. but its true. its something that i would gladly avoid. then again, its only when you lose something, do you gain another, just like in the movie.
so damn grateful for the people around me everyday who brightens up my life little by little.
anyways i ABHOR thursday all of a sudden. cause i was planning to be sleeping later in the morning when i was done studying all night, but sadly i still have to move my ass down to the studio for styling. no wonder i was feeling so vulgar. tsk.
damn. and i hate it most when the matters of the heart comes into focus. and it always always almost always happen just before exams. i suck.
anyways, jsut got home from passing some stuff to liping. can you please not be so ass next time.
i was so kind to help you print your stuffs and i still personally walked all the way up till your block just to pass to you. and when i asked if we could have met at somewhere around the soccer field, you still can tell me its too far for you. =.=
damn ass. somemore when i reached your house you still made me wait at the void deck just so that you can wear your contaccts and spray your perfume. HAHAHA! KNS! zzz.
okay im done slandering you on my blog.
mehh.
back to studying PROTEOMICS! if not tomorrow syahsyah will slap me.
every saturday can be such a traumatizing experience, yet each and every week i look forward to seeing the people who brightens up my life easily as a whip of that wand you'd see in Harry Potter.
to know if i love or hate my saturdays, i really can't decide.
it can be such a great learning experience, a different kind of an exposure. at the same time, it can be such a heart jolting experience, with all that nerve-wrecking moments.
then again, with the passing of every week, i learn something new, i smile even wider when i see my favourite people. every saturday is no doubt a very rich and enlightening experience. twelve hours spent in the most unique way.
what Ryan did just a day ago, was truly brave, impressive and no doubt strong-minded.
i was blown off my seat, to feel that nonchalance in his tone, and voice.
and what he admitted to was not ethically dishonorable, but simply something that was too futuristic for many to accept. he brought back the true meaning of simplicity.
it puts myself to shame. courage is the one true value that has been long lost in humanity. "even the most muscular man with the most perfect looks can cower helplessly under the slightest pressure experienced from the eyes of the society."
just days ago, i remember seeing the news talk about how Taiwan was struggling with the longest drought they have experienced to date.
today, i see the faces of pain and helplessness filmed in the media. Typhoon Morakot hit Taiwan just like that, and within a mere few days more than 600 people are have been buried alive, thousands were presumably dead, and communications to several rural villages have been cut off.
And the numbers go up as the clock ticks by the second.
i hope that they can get through this. really. i have friends in Tainan, Kaoshuing. And the area has already been hit by the typhoon. its scary how sometimes, life can be as equally fragile as dried clay, dried clay that can easily crumble into powder and set sail in the wind.
its terrifying to know of the news of a man, who lost all his ten family members just because the house collapsed.
its heartbreaking to hear of how two sons searched in desperation for their mother, despite the typhoon ongoing, all in hopes of just wanting to find her remains and hold her for one last time.
as we sit comfortably back in our homes; people are crying their lungs out there, lost and buried in total darkness, thinking and reflecting on their lives as the oxygen runs out. and right now, the storm is moving up towards Japan, Kanto.
i spent an hour walking around bukit batok. from toh tuck till burgundy rise and then till bukit batok west and then to the east. all the way until block 130 and then back to block 626 again, before heading home.
Run by Leona Lewis on the repeat in my mp3 all the while. ggoing through my head over and over again.
yes, good bye cruel world! im having an outbreak on my nose. one that die die doesn't want to go away. and one in my nostril, again. and another two each on my left and right cheek. i shall hide myself from the world, for the moment.
good bye cruel world!!!! lmao.
just kidding, my name's not zac efron anyway.
soeaking of which, i saw this real nice video on edmunnd's blog! shall post it up here soon, real soon. HAHAHA!
im wearing my sister's clip now by the way. HAAHAH! my fringe is piercing my eyeballs. oh mmy eyeballs.
okayy i am crapping a little too much, shall go back to trying to study. :/
okay, since i promised not to jack you on my blog, i shall write this one nicely, just for ONCE. hahaha.
went out to meet princess elizabeth in the afternoon, but he was too tired from his NDP guard duty that he took a longer time than usual to arrive. and speaking of which, you should be honoured since i have NEVER waited for anyone for longer than two hours in my entire life. usually if the person is later than one hour i would just simply head home.
but nonetheless, it was a fun day and im sure he will swell at this, but since he really wants me to say this then, HANNAH HANNAH,
PRINCESS ELIZABETH IS VERY CUTE. (i wasn't forced to do this.)
goodness gracious me. somebody stab me now. HAHAHAHA! and hey! i survived a blog post without jacking you! so proud of myself.
had a late night call, was both happy yet nervous about the call. and then after which i saw my horoscope for today, where i am not supposed to be engaged in phone conversations where i MUST WATCH WHAT I SAY! O.O and indeed i was in a chatty mood.
die die die die die! mehhhh. i just wish i did not allow any misinterpretations.
okay, maybe not that serious. but had a close shave with being badly disfigured when the circuit box exploded! so scary right. HAHAHAHA. there was a short circuit fire and then when i wanted to check if the fire was getting worst, the circuit fuse exploded just as i entered the office. freaky. okay lah, but im just exaggerating cause its so dramatic.
and at level ten, they do not have a single fire extinguisher PLUS their fire alarms were not working. bloody dumb you know. i have never seen such poorly equipped fire emergency preventions in any building until yesterday.
oh oh and when i went down to the security counter, the security guards were freaking out like dumb old men not knowing what to do! plus they got their colleague to go up to put out the fire, without a fire extinguisher. =.= and i was like
"OH, IM SORRY,
IS HE GOING TO BE PUTTING OUT THE FIRE
BY BLOWING IT LIKE A CANDLE?"
zzzzz. that's like enough drama and blondness to last me for an entire life time.
had a long-lasting headache throughout the night cause of the carbon monoxide i think. and i had to go for a chalet as well. just got back but my head is still hurting, prolly cause of the lack of sleep as well. mehhh.
caught ORPHAN last night at 1.30am. was expecting some horror flick, but turned out it was a thriller and it was actually quite funny in a way.
i actually did a lot of dummb stuff during the movie too.
For example, when Esther tried seducing her foster father, i literally LOLed. and i mean it. HAHAHAHA!
And then when the Kate gave Esther such a hard kick that Esther's neck broke, i YAYed out loud and the theatre laughed. lmaos.
OH OH! and the part where Esther held a pen knife to her foster brother's penis and threatened to cut it off if he mentioned about what he saw! that was dumb. throughout the entire show i kept thinking it's like some sort of a thriller movie regarding some serial killer just that the characters were all downsized to little kids.
imagine two little girls committing murder, and other stuff like that. totally unethical and funny. i seriously think its funny.
but it is a really very disturbing show, at the same time quite funny. cause the horror parts are like so unexpectingly sadistic that you would not help but laugh really heartily. but i guess it's also because the movie's for sadistic people like me anyway.
uh oh uh oh. i was just reminded of this by my sister and so i decided to blog about it before my brain's memory gets lost somewhere in the pool of grey matter again.
well so anyway, i usually study at the same place, at this huge ass table right in front of the living room's window. and normally there would be this ledge thing right in front of the windows. and so halfway through studying there was this bloody huge thud that nearly caused my heart to jolt all the way out from my chest through my throat and out of my mouth! lmao.
and so as i turned around to take a look, i saw this bird spread out on the ledge of the window, a puddle of blood vomited from it's mouth and it's big fat eyes staring straight up at me. and and and as if it was not freaky enough, there comes this crow appearing from no where and landed right beside the sad pigeon. then the crow looked at me, looked back at the pigeon and simply and gingerly broke its neck and took off with the carcass.
and then the puddle of blood was there for a few weeks before it finally decided to rain.
Singaporeans can be really dumb sometimes. i mean, i think she did a pretty good job out there you know, to dance in public, to start the ball rolling for the entire performance as well, i think it's really very brave of her.
"oh i'm sorry she did such a lousy job but i don't think
i recall seeing you dance in public either, have i?"
ayee, seriously, if they want to talk so much they should go and set a better example than complain non-stop. but i think it will be high time that they are probably going to sprain their backs or something plus end up as a bigger joke. and and there was this guy who commented on how a particular guy looked lost behind the lead dancer cause she missed her step (or did she?)
but hello, it's a flash mob, it's where everyone join the dance regardless of whether if they know the actual steps? and and i bet people would be even more lost if the guy who commented tried to lead anyway. HAHAHA! imagine he sprains his back and everyone follows suit. dumb.
okay my computer is playing some weird ass music for no apparent reasons and i have closed and re-opened all my existing windows and it's still playing! plus it's some really weird ass music. damn freaky but it has stopped already.
just that it didn't stop before i got this even freakier message from our all time favourite byl-princess.
"haha beauty my foot. you are nocturnal. i then beauty sleep haha. Beautiful me."
seriously leh, in the middle of the night, plus if i was really enjoying my beauty sleep and i saw this, i don't think i can sleep with ease for the rest of the night. and TYVM for being so blonde to send this message while i am still blogging! AHAHHAHAAH! you can go be blondie number two huh.
these would be what i will be what i will be taking care of when september starts. i shall be cleaning their shit, wiping their asses, maybe measuring them and not to forget feeding them.
yes yes, i have gotten my FINAL YEAR PROJECT TOPIC! ((((:
finally, the much anticipated project is here! finally i will be able to be like a year three! :D this is damn exciting!!
anyways...
i have had my resignation letter typed out. and printed out. i am just contemplating whether if i should send it in. truth is, i am really sick of Waraku. i know this is not like me, to give up on a job and be irresponsible. but over time the management has really made me sick and tired of working. the past four years working in different places, it's really the first time i feel like i am not being appreciateed as a staff. Waraku Holdings has given me one of the, no wait, THE most unfavourable working experiences. period.
mehhhh.
to the left, to the left. it's not like the escalator is some can and everyone's trying to be the sardines. but i really admire SIM for their students' culture with the escalator courtesy, seemingly wired into their brains or something. they really keep to the left and usually the ones who don't are from ngee ann. which is so embarrassing since im also from ngee ann, just that im usually rushing my way up the escalator than to just simply stand there and pretend that my butt's damn big. "excuse me, but i think you should shift your butt to the left."
lol. but really, i don't understand why people really just like to stand there and block the way. it's the same for the MRTs and the lifts, where the people die die refuse to move so that others can get out first. will it really kill you to move your asses?
and coouples. they like to pretend that they are one when they are doing that hugging thing or kissing thing. but seriously, your butts are equally big even when you try to have them combined. or maybe they have a coin slot somewhere...like i have to slot in a 20 cent coin so that they will open their gateway or something.
here's a link for you online shoppaholics out there! this link will be up under the "etc" tabs. and no, im not some crazy fan of shopping online! hahaha, just helping blondie advertise for her cousin. LOL. but i did the link's picture by myself okay! so pro right? i know i know.
anyways, all my life i have been so proud of being able to shoot horrible comments and bitchy lines at people so well that it seemed as though i was born to do it. it was the one skill i acquired when i used to work in retail. but today, i have met my match.
6th August 2009, Timothy Lee has managed to subdue that mouth of mine and keep me speechless. i simply can't believe that when i was saying him with my demeaning comments, he manged to rebutt and shut me up! my life is over.
what is the meaning of this, with someone who is able to seal my mouth. i shall go kill myself. HAHAHA!
mehhh.
okay let's see if i have anymore bullshit to talk about. hmmms, i am currently eating shaker fries!shake shake, shake shake you shake it! the seasonal goodie snack that makes you love licking your fingers after eating. nice! but damn salty. aiyah who cares, im gonna turn bald anyway. isshh.
oh oh! i was talking to blondie just now about skinny girls. i think it's scary for girls to be skinny, like wayyyyy skinny. it would seem like any freak accident can happen where she can simply stab me to death. and if i bring her to the bowling alley, i must be really careful and tell her,
"i think you better stay away from the alleys in case the ball hits you and you scramble into pieces more dramatically than the bowling pints."
so yeah, a little more flesh is better. sometimes it's just weird how certain girls can keep ranting on and on and non-stop about how fat they are, when they aren't! plus, think of it this way, would you want to have sex with your boyfriend and end up stabbing him to death with your fingers and elbows?
so girls, please don't go starving, cause it ain't pretty anyway. oh but that doesn't mean you can be extremely overweight. im sure no one would want to suffocate and crush their boyfriend when they make out or something.
princess elizabeth: i can start digging my grave now
princess elizabeth: help me dig
alfred: huhhh
princess elizabeth: my body very long must dig more
alfred: HAHAHA! OMG!
alfred: stupid. i must quote this.
and indeed i quoted.
anyways, i found this! new pineapple tea by POKKA. not bad not bad, quite exotic.the bottle is greeeen and there's this interesting taste somemore. i think pokka is damn pro to come up with so many different flavours. exotic ones somemore. nice.
i am trying to find this application thing that i can install on my blog. then i can read the daily horoscope everyday at my blog. cool right? then i won't have to read the papers everyday.
my mother just asked me the same question for the fifteenth time. damn ass. but then, i didn't get angry because i was reminded of this video.
its not say really very sad, but it does make me re-think about what my mother has done for me over the years. and i am glad that we have never really majorly bickered except that one time six years ago. and as much as i talk like an ass to her, we both enjoy this kind of an ass talk very much, since she talks to me like even more of an ass. i love my mum! HAHAHA! so gay.
i see tables and chairs aligned in the old school style.
the table tops adorned with liquid paper and coloured ink, while piles and piles of books lay in assemblage by the sides of the seats.
baby photos embellished the once tattered and boring noticeboards.
i can feel myself sitting right there once again, among all the chatter and laughter.
i really miss you guys. two years of my life that i spent with my everyday facing each and every one of them. they were like another family to me, my long lost childhood siblings that i have once again come across to embrace and cherish.
i would give anything for time to take a reverse in turn, to bring me back, even for just a split second, to go back to the year 2006 when the hamster scurried across the classroom floor.
i want to be naive and care-free again. i wish to wake up every morning excited and breathless, to be on my way to school and think of all the fun that we will be having for yet another day though having to wear that hideous and hateful uniform.
it would be such task, to put everything into words, of how drastically my life has been transformed and impacted by every one of you.
a game of blind mice would never be the same again, without regina's monstrous screams and jessie's silly laughter. sitting in class would be a different thing cause you will never hear wenrui and qiqi blabber away loudly at the back of the class in a world of their own, regardless of whoever the teacher is.
it would be so hard to sit down and gossip with another group of friends when all the excitement and laughter seemed to have been frozen in time when we sat down in the canteens and listened to yiting's scandals and laughed at qiqi's buttinsky face.
being the cleanliness leader would never be the same elsewhere, because it would not become one of the reasons i wind up being good friends with tayhuimin and siokxin. (:
ffunny how melissa used to be such a tyrant to me, throwing all the possible threats that she can hurl at me just to keep me under control. "shut up or i'll box you." "keep quiet or i'll poke your eye!" "Alfred stop it or i'lll box you!"
sometimes moving on and growing up isn't such a good thing really. everytime we meet up now, you guys talk about universities and people that i have never heard of. i can't help but feel as though i am lagging behind, really badly.but that's jsut selfish to keep holding on to something that will never be again.
you guys, school's starting soon for you all so good luck with university and study hard! (:
i initially thought of setting up a new blog and leaving this one behind. planned to simply announce that i have moved and tell you guys to simply ask me for the new link.
but, there has been too much memories, good or bad written in this blog. and i just find that, what's the point of leaving it all behind as a reminder or memory, when you can embrace it and move on from the same place.
and so, after painstakingly editing and typing and saving and uploading and squinting and thinking and feeling frustrated at times for five full hours, i am done. a new skin, slightly edited from the original. and i am so proud of myself. HAHA! especially cause i haven't changed my blogskin since eons ago.
and the addition of a new playlist, all songs by pixie lott. think she's my new favourite talent for the moment, cause i never thought poker face could actually be so emotional.
i love my saturdays sometimes, it's funny, crazy, bizarre and unpredictable. so far, so good. and yesterday's was probably one of the more crazy days.
anyway, stupid nicole LQH gave me a heart attack. i totally forgot about her going overseas when she is STILL under her H1N1 mc. kept calling her and her phone was switched off. i nearly thought that the worst had happened to her. freaked me out for a couple of days until i called edwin to double check. stupid woman, if you get back and you see this, prepare to die a horrible death. (:
exams are coming in two weeks' time! excluding the study week of course, need to freak myself out more sometimes. especially when i am still feeling so relaxed and mehhing about. missed a twosix outing yesterday, sadly, but hopefully they would organize another outing soon enough!
anyways, im off to buy some baby stuff for merisse! i have deleted you from facebook, just like how you chose to eradicate me from your list of friends. good luck with you life, being lost and unknown with what you want from the people around you. good bye.
