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if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.

i initially thought of setting up a new blog and leaving this one behind. planned to simply announce that i have moved and tell you guys to simply ask me for the new link.

but, there has been too much memories, good or bad written in this blog. and i just find that, what's the point of leaving it all behind as a reminder or memory, when you can embrace it and move on from the same place.

and so, after painstakingly editing and typing and saving and uploading and squinting and thinking and feeling frustrated at times for five full hours, i am done. a new skin, slightly edited from the original. and i am so proud of myself. HAHA! especially cause i haven't changed my blogskin since eons ago.

and the addition of a new playlist, all songs by pixie lott. think she's my new favourite talent for the moment, cause i never thought poker face could actually be so emotional.

i love my saturdays sometimes, it's funny, crazy, bizarre and unpredictable. so far, so good. and yesterday's was probably one of the more crazy days.

anyway, stupid nicole LQH gave me a heart attack. i totally forgot about her going overseas when she is STILL under her H1N1 mc. kept calling her and her phone was switched off. i nearly thought that the worst had happened to her. freaked me out for a couple of days until i called edwin to double check. stupid woman, if you get back and you see this, prepare to die a horrible death. (:

exams are coming in two weeks' time! excluding the study week of course, need to freak myself out more sometimes. especially when i am still feeling so relaxed and mehhing about. missed a twosix outing yesterday, sadly, but hopefully they would organize another outing soon enough!

anyways, im off to buy some baby stuff for merisse!

i have deleted you from facebook, just like how you chose to eradicate me from your list of friends. good luck with you life, being lost and unknown with what you want from the people around you. good bye.

Libellés : :), ALFRED, great news, khalisah, out of the blue gibberishh, Shine

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NU ER~~~

ENJOY YOUR NINETEENTH WELL JASMINE SIM!

:D

Libellés : :), ALFRED, BEST FRIENDS, BIRTHDAYS, great news

in six months and five days this blog will turn two years old.

scary how time flies by and struck you in surprise. over the past one year, no doubt the way i blogged my posts have changed.

i believe, from childish and nonsensical, to controversial (at times), crazy and mad (all the time) and most of all, more matured and sensible (which explains the few emo-screamo posts and hiatuses).

from the "liaos, lahs, lehs, lohs and huhs, and sobsobs and =.=" in nearly every sentence, to the more civilized and pleasant posts. from disgustingly tiny fonts, to disturbingly large and emphasized letters.

but one thing has not changed one bit, my stubborn and shameless need for friendship.

everyday someone tells you that, people come and go, friends can be made and forgotten. but i never believed so, or in the sense, i always lived in a fear of losing my friends, any friend that is.

when i was really young, i knew this boy. His name was Paul Sim Yong Qiang. Skinny boy at sight, funny and an entertainer at heart, always the more sensible one between us. All the other kids loved him, and he was no doubt, wittingly a people's person.

i would call him every night and we would chat the evenings away even though we hung out all the time in school. on every alternate week, we would while afternoons away at either of our houses. like brothers, we shared all our secrets among ourselves, and was always siding each other when trouble calls.

and yet, a friendship as strong and indispensable as this, was fragile and easily put behind when we went separate paths and moved on in life. so then i got sick of always keeping track with the whatever and whenever in his life, and his lack of initiation.

five, six years down the road, i spent everyday living in fear, of losing another friend, and seeing to the importance of ensuring a good friendship every time i met someone nice.

till today, i regret for giving up on preserving our friendship. because, today may be the last day you tell your friend that he or she was the greatest person who ever came into your life. and because tomorrow he or she may disappear like they were never there.

if i were to metamorphose my compunctions for this forsaken friendship, i would say that it's a burn scar that covers my entire skin, marking the regret for life in the most significant way.

so my friends, do accept my apology, for i feel a great deal of vindication for being so busy and ever more busier, as we grow old. but do know that no matter how much i change, deep down in my heart, i value each and every single one of you, for all of you makes me who i am today.

i love each and every one of my friends and i thank you all for being there all my life.

and for those who couldn't find your face in the picture, don't bother cause we have never taken a photo together anyway! lmao. but whether or not your face is in it, so long as you see me as a friend, do know that you are well-valued.

because i do too. (:

i especially love the fact that as each day goes by, our friendship grows older by a day.

Libellés : :), 3040540406, ALFRED, BEST FRIENDS, great news, KART (:, khalisah, out of the blue gibberishh, poly friends, shiquan, work

shut up and put your money where your mouth is!

now that's what i will tell to the rich kids the next time they try to be a snub. my secret fetish for jazz has been more obvious lately, from Amy Winehouse to Duffy to Olivia Ong to Joanna Wong and to zhis zhis zhis and to zhat zhat zhat.

non-stop on the bus, non-stop back at home.

i need to feel more carefree. and be more carefree as well.

sometimes i jsut feel as though i have been stuck on this treadmill for a really long time, without a goal, without a destination point. i have been running, just running. i have not stopped once in my tracks to take in the beautiful things around me.

and every now and then, i thiink back and reminisce in the moment that i missed, the things that i have overlooked while i ran and let them whizz past me.

i have been really proud of myself, for i have entered two common tests fully prepared and ready to take on the questions. for i have exited two common tests early and with a blooming glow of confidence in myself.

then again, i faked mc for another paper. it's kind of a sin, but then again, i really wanted to focus on the other two papers so much that i overlooked this last paper. taking the mc was really kind of a cowardly act, but who wouldn't think smartly when it comes to getting good grades? if taking an mc allows me more time to prepare myself for an even harder paper, i wouldn't mind. at least i would be able to enter the examination hall feeling more accomplished and upright to myself.

yeah, excuses but i don't care. yeah, life is short, so i wouldn't want to spend a single minute feeling sad over a nonsensical piece of paper and it's red throbbing grade. anything upsetting is ridiculous and a waste of time. so to minimise the chances of that happening, i would have to make sure i put in more effort and embrace the great stuff.

studying hard. is this even me? shocking, but yeah. this is me.

Libellés : :(, :), ALFRED, exams, great news, not-so-good-news, school stuffs

according to Fatin Nasha, Doctor K has a shriveled up penis and a pair of dusty balls.

and that, is something i would never want to know for the whole of my life. have fun finding out though, lazy cat.

anyways, i met up with chris on monday. and yes khalisah, timo's chris, according to you. hahaha!

well, it was good really. to meet up with a friend and have a real formal kind of talk. and it was amazing how unexpectedly well we clicked. i should do more of these stuff.

but anyway, i am really sleepy, so this shall be a short and brief post. shall talk about it more. and i mean my meet up with chris and not Fatin's current new fetish. :)

Libellés : :), great news, poly friends, school stuffs, weirdos

updates!

the past week has been rather unbearable, and finally i decided to just shed some light on what has happened all together last week.

first of all, because i failed my module, my dad has been talking to me sarcastically. the things he said, the stuff he did, sometimes i just wonder if one is only recognised by his or her grades in a family.

second of all, my mum's been forcing me to quit my job cause she thinks its affecting my jobs really badly, but seriously, the thought of having no jobs and no money really kills me. i have so many stuff to pay for, with my bills busting to $200 and with debts owed to others cause i took up some additional lessons earlier on, plus my stupid laptop loan, its really jsut plain tiring.

third of all, holding two part-time jobs really kills you, you work every other night, you go home late every single night, you don't get to see your family cause they are out in the day, you head home to quietness every single night and sometimes when you really wish for them to be there, you don't. all i wanted was a good rest at home and yet, they could offer a quarrel with you.

forth of all, to my ex-fyp-partner, fuck off. you are a bloody loser, go ahead and bitch about me behind my back, nobody will believe you. and thank you abi. :)

and then two other more private issues. pfffft.

a fight with my eldest sister back at home was really the last draw. all this in one week, and my closest friends were all busy. i was all alone. sometimes i really just, don't know what to do with my life.

on the birghter side, we had a work chill-out on saturday nnight. we all went for steamboat!

i know i'm a big eater, but when things aren't looking so good, i tend to end up binging, aka eating even more. and that's what i did, really, till all of them stopped and ended up looking at me, i guess, disgusted that i can stomach that much stuff.

so i stopped the binging, and we jsut sat around and had a chat,, or rather a long speech from David soh the manager. lmao.

much thanks to Jesline and Yvonne! for staying overnight with me, cause i really didn't want to go home and face my troubles. we walked from bugis till raffles and till clarke quay, then river valley and finally plaza singapura. was really good to jsut sit around and chit chat and do nothing.

oh oh, and best of all, i met up with 4o4 on saturday! i was really feeling very upset in the morning, and decided not to leave house anyway, but in the end, i made up my mind to go find them and i was glad i did. being around them, really bring my troubles away.

thank you all, really, thank you. :)

Libellés : :), 3040540406, ALFRED, depressing news, great news, not-so-good-news, work

and so, one leaves the surface of the Earth and disappears.

the other, goes to Liverpool for a long four months.

this is the closure of everything, yet the start of something new. fresh air is coming, i can feel it, i can taste the breeze.

Libellés : ALFRED, depressing news, emo-shitzssgfsrgwg, great news, not-so-good-news, out of the blue gibberishh, randomization

i realised i like it alot when she talks about the beatles.

its like, hearing her all excited and imagining her eyes sparkling at the initiation of the topic seems kind of

cool?

okay, so im not supposed to be here, but heck. i figured im going to screw biochemistry big time.

hip hip and hurray.

Libellés : ALFRED, conversations, depressing news, exams, great news, not-so-good-news, out of the blue gibberishh

i have set up a blog for my dear niece, merisse.

read all about my dear sweet tart at

monomanic me!

with credits of the blog address to Khalisah Tan!

will be blogging on wednesday, after the two stupid papers scheduled tuesday and wednesday of this week. mehh.

Libellés : ALFRED, babies, great news, merisse, poly friends

allow me to introduce to you, my lovely niece. :D

Merisse Poh was born 6th February 2009, 1608 hours at Mount Elizabeth Hospital.
She is a chubby and lovable sweet tart at sight.

i have yet to really see her personally, but shall be heading down to sis' on monday to cuddle with my cute little meri. and i have no idea why she is called merisse when the name itself is mostly a surname for italian men, but its special, and will do fine.

off for work.

Libellés : babies, great news, merisse

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