if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
vendredi 31 juillet 2009 02:28
was sending songs online to princess elizabeth the other day.
Fuck You by Lily Allen
elizabeth: eh the previous song is to scold me one or is it really just a song?
YOU THINK?!himbo leh. HAHAHAHAH!
anyways, let's talk about smarter topics.
i have survived my week of ASSIGNMENTS! though im still owing my 2000000000000000word essay for cancer biomarkers, but overall the other stuffs are all DONE! D-O-N-E!
i am so proud of myself. P-R-O-U-D!
and and and i have also recovered from my cold-turned-fever-turned-flu-turned-migraine. which is good, because i feel so much better now and i can also get to carry my fatty niece! :D
and of course, with many thanks to BLONDIE, i managed to do quite well for my CLONES presentation. and i am so proud of my slides that i want to present it again and again and again and again. the ethical dilemma of clones! so interesting yet annoying. ishh.
okay, i have decided! i am going to save up for that ZARA JACKET I SAW! :( one two nine says the price tag, but i shall try! as hard as i can.
anyway, nicole is down with a possible H1N1 and it sounds rather serious, so having just recovered from influenza, i shall cross my fingers for you! and hopee she gets well like asap, so unlike her to be sick. :(
and, here's a picture of ngee ann's very own superman!
western medication and TCM comes in a package everytime im sick. there would be this series of gobbling down the western medication and liver oil pills with the help of TCM herbal tea. and to be exact, TCM herbal tea boiled with ginger. BLAH! damn erk.
i wish my nose can stop dripping non-stop like a water hose. it's like sooner or later the firemen will be putting out fire with my nose.
mehh.
now, before i go to sleep, i must blog about Aisyah's birthday surprise.
the entire PAINSTAKINGLY drafted process.
it was a simple saturday evening when weisheng came online to wish me happy birthday. and then i asked him how was he planning to spice things up for that crazy woman.
so, since weisheng hadn't had anything in mind, with my genius of a smart brain i came up with the plan:
to surprise her during lecture where weisheng was to hide in the emergency exit door.
it was the most exciting thing to do, to plan something and then see it come to life successfully. first, aisyah would come to school. second, before lecture starts weisheng will sneak into the lecture theatre and hide in the emergency exit area because aisyah is to come by the front. and third, i was to trick aisyah into coming to the emergency exit area with me.
now, the birthday girl obviously OBVIOUSLY has skills in ruining plans.
on monday i headed down to Four Leaves by the atrium and ordered a cake. the problem was, the flavour. and so i got weisheng to ask aisyah subtly on the type of fruits she liked. hence, resulting in telling weisheng to talk about pomegranate cookies, which, i seriously suspect don't exist at all. and then we decided on strawberries. so it was going to be strawberry shortcake. and the aunty at the bakery thought that i was getting a cake for my girlfriend. =.=
then wednesday afternoon fatin shocked me by telling me that aisyah has decided to skip school on friday. and then everyone flipped. and so i told fatin to tell aisyah that she needs her proteomics logbook, so aisyah must come on friday to pass the logbook to fatin.
problem resolved, for the moment.
and i thought things would go smoothly there after. where i was WRONG.
little miss asshole aisyah decided to be indecisive about going to school because she was unsure of what to wear. and thus, i spent the night before persuading and helping her with her choice of clothes.
and then the next morning, she decided to be LATE for class. and now nobody knows when and where will she be coming from. with Anil informed to tell her SPECIFICALLY to enter the lecture theatre by the front, as the emergency exit was located at the back door. this bloody idiot decided to come by the back. and then she saw fatin and weisheng with the cake while i was off looking for a lighter. IDIOT.
and then when she finally settled down in the lecture hall pretending to be oblivious to it all, she refused to come to the emergency exit area with me. TSK!
so we had no choice but to bring the cake to her majesty.
the entire process was full of cold sweat and shocks and heart attacks and more cold sweats. nevertheless,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISYAH, AND TYVM FOR THE TROUBLE.
my brain cells died and died over and over again. no doubt why i am sick today.
sighs. it is truly vexing when you are caught in a dilemma of doing something that is ethically approved and acceptable, but under the situation of being denied the entity to do so.
and then you would find that, it is not something that is supposed to be discreet nor wrong. but you are still not allowed to do so. so many a time i would wonder, why do they think like that?
friendship is truly the most important thing to me, than compared to anything else. and i have reached the conclusion that, if i will have to lose my hard-earned status in order to stand by it, i will and i must.
because it's not just a need.
my two hundredth post dedicated to such frustrations. olaaa.
i have had this realization of how every saturday i am surrounded by health freaks. it makes me feel unhealthy. some day i shall go for a check up to see if i have got any tubeworms or parasites in my tummy.
another day that has passed so quickly, spent laughing at STT and korean girls. lol. and WHY! why are Sagittarians not trusted?
HAHAHA! yes, princess elizabeth has popped by my blog and found out about my evil scheme of burning his shorts! and i have only just realized why he loved short shorts so much.
BECAUSE...
four years of studying at RV has madde you a shorts fetish! HAHAHA! no wonder you love to exhibit your legs so much.
HAHA!yes, please keep your shorts away! and i bet you are already deeply asleep so you won't see my sms till morning! hahaha!
anyways, im just here to say. HAPPY NINETEENTH AISYAH! i hope you continue to stay idiotic! hhahaha! and do come to school late more often, it's a first to find someone who is more unpunctual than me. hohoho!
let's hope tomorrow will be a great day for you lah huh?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i hate assignments. such as two thousand word essays and powerpoint presentations and ethical debates and whatsoever there are! and it's nearly 3am and i have not been enjoying myself since this morning.
was fun in school cause abi drove us down to the macdonald's drive-thru again! the maple syrup definitely gave me a big fat boost from last night's burning of the midnight oil.
and now i am having a diarrhea. but NO, i am not blogging from the loo. HAHAHA! and worst still, i feel like there's this hand gripping my stomach and pulling it. i know i know, it sounds like when a girl is having her menstruation. but this is how i ALWAYS feel when i get a diarrhoea. and NO, there has never been a case of blood discharge. =.=
and so apparently now everytime i type lmao i laugh, thanks to a certain someone for calling me maomao. lmaos.
let's not side track anyway, i can't wait for the semester to end as much as i hate for it to end. contradictory and oxy-moronish, my trademark. but frankly speaking, i am kind of afraid that i will be all alone next semester, without classmates that i know and without a partner for my final year project. and yes, i can always make new friends.
but, coming to poly has only made me realize one thing.
that's that one would never ever make a really close friend that you can ever trust in poly. i have lost hope and faith and myself. but i am seriously thankful to edmund for talking to me today. it made me feel so much better. then again, it made me feel how remorseful i am when i was angry with their gang and that i treated them rather badly when i felt disappointed. but i am glad that, i did not choose to block them out and make them invisible childishly. so hence, we are still friends, though not as close, but still the ones i can trust at times.
but still, i am thankful, i am really thankful for getting to know the friends and classmates that i got to know in NP. :)
and i am kind of glad that tomorrow morning i do not have to wake up early. :D finally, a thursday when i can at last sleep in for the morning. lol!
it has been a long day, and i took a short nap in abi's car, again. XP sorry abi! i will get you your cushions for the car and fold your clothes for you more! but please don't announce to the whole wide world that i am your...car maid. =.=
met princess elizabeth and wilson today to do a little short hunting. i wouldn't say hunt for what, but yeah, it was a late night hunting and once again my good old frey was wearing his good old primary school shorts.
one day, ONE DAY i am going to burn those things.
alright. time to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. and then wake up again to continue slogging my ass off.
scary how reliant i was on the sleeping pills. it feels like as though its a drug addiction.
and the minute i stop taking them, my body reacts like a caffeine overdosed teabag. my mind is still as dead as when i was taking them or when i was not.
sooner or later, i feel the need to check myself into a mental institute.
then again, it should be just me. definitely just me, and i still need to try harder to work things out.
i am definitely hurt by what has happened, and definitely more hurt than i am apologetic.
but doing this to me just hours before what i thought could have been a great birthday just simply broke me.
what bothered me most is that, i was not sad at all. i was hurt so badly that i simply took a deep breath and sighed, after hearing many of my other beloved friends' consolations.
once again, every thing happens for a reason. and this, i guess is to prove that i should be even more afraid of losing my friends, hence doing more to let them stay and keep them close. if i could, i rather i never failed any modules last semester.
there are of course, blessings in disguise. but definitely more of the pain and emotional turmoil.
you have always said, i have not seen the several other faces of yours. but i have seen enough.
i took a pill last night and slept from 6pm onwards.
up till this morning at 9am. and i was still feeling lethargic all dday.
seriously, i should stop taking the damn sleeping pills. its so freaky. and i dreamt about sleeping for a real long time and waking up three days later. it kinds of scares me that i may just fall asleep one day and never wake up.
one and a half day more till B-day. excited? nah. i kind of just planned for myself to be swarmed with work all week, since many people are going to just not going to bother about it after all.
so scary, i'm not sure whether to anticipate it or just let it come and pass. i kind of hope for it to be a special day, but then again, i don't really need it to be a special day. just maybe have a friend to spent it with would be good enough. i guess what happened last year really made me very upset, so my hopes are no longer up but i just beg with all my might that someone would be nice enough to keep me company next thursday.
sighs, as much as this July did not turn out nicely, but i guess i have grown a little in the sense where i think differently?
a year back, if i lost my phone i would be damn upset and pondering why am i so unlucky. and if i broke my slipper i would be feeling damn unlucky as well. or if i had some problems with my friends, i would be devastated.
this July, i lost my phone. only so that i could get a new one, even though it's not the dream phone, but it helps me save money?
and i broke my sandals when i was out with my family, only to get new cheap ones since the old one was already really dirty and smelly? so again, i save money.
plus i had some issues with my friend, only to realise that, some people just don't know how to appreciate others. and in a lucky way, i made a new buddy. (: and im talking about you jaime! hahaha! kind of a special friend in a way. i mean, the situation, that is.
so anyway, i was told to come up with a wishlist, so i did, but i wouldn't be expecting much as there is more to life than having a need for your friends to make it a really special day. so nicole, here's my wishlist. LOL.
my needs:
-new ear phones, preferrably in-ear or headphones. -a nice pair of havianas -a new pair of white shoes
my wants:
-a nice black jacket from maybe crocodile or zara or puma :P HAHA! -new pair of dark coloured slim fit jeans
i guess that's what i can think of, i don't really expect anything since its all pretty much unaffordable, except maybe a nice cake and friends to get the day by. that should be the best. or better still, that every year i have a nice friend who keeps me company on that day. (:
and by the way, i have size 43/44 for my feet and a 30inch waist. HAHA! lol.
but that, the important thing is having a simple yet nice way to spend it. jsut last week, we celebrated viviana's birthday. and it was cool, to know that the three of them, viviana, yee siew, and matthew spend every year's birthday at the same pizzahut outlet together, since secondary school. that's really very nice and sweet. i hope i'm lucky enough as well to have friends like that.
sighs, such serenity before a supposedly excited event. weird.
mehhh. anything luh, i'm in this very heck care mood nowadays.
but it's bad.
cause i guess, maybe it's because of the sleeping pills, or maybe it's because of the semester ending soon. so i am starting to.....................................LAZE?
sighs. okay, i should cut some slack soon. HAHA.
anddddddddddddddd.
i was told to write a wishlist by nicole. LOL.
its very weird to write one actually, more of like shameless to write one. plus, i rather people guess and spend time thinking of what to get for me, so in the end, the present would be meaningful as well?
aand so far, all i could think of is maybe a surprise celebration on the day itself. never really had one, no wait, never did had one. cause somehow it's always been forgotten, or overlooked, sadly.
but since you asked for it, i shall write one soon. HAHAA! but be sure to know that my expectations will be SKY HIGH, since i will probably spend the next few days thinking about me, myself, and what i would want. LMAO.
okay fine, i stand corrected. so Ngee Ann has like, five cases of swine flu, but then again i bet they all probably got it from the polyclinic when they were getting their MCs to skip school anyway.
HAHA. okay that's not very nice, but it's highly possible when our school has so many people like me. :D ok, im in a good mood, so MOVING ON,
for my favourite video of THE moment.
SANDRA, YOU SUCK! hahahaha! dumb bitch. full stop.
lmao. i am finally done with ANTM 12, and i really like this part of the recap. in fact, i love it. i love how it portrays sandra in her natural dumb way. HAHA!
"i'm here to win America's Next Top Model." (x 1233902734872358620816508365th time)
okay bye.
OH OH! and watch this as well! HAHAHA!
tune to 6.20 onwards.
"do not go THERE with me, do not go THERE with me." (where?!?!)
"YOU TWENTY-FIVE. YOU TWENTY-FIVE YEARS OLD." (yeah obviously, maths fail huh?)
SWINE FLU BRINGS OUT THE SWINE IN YOU. i think singaporeans can be really thick in the mind sometimes. it really really amazes me how stupid one can get.
i took a cab the other day to rush down to school and unfortunately, i flagged down an idiot of a driver. and so halfway through the journey, my nose got sensitive as usual and i sneezed.
so i sneezed, right into my ball of a fist, and then i sensed this glance of annoyance reflected in the rear view mirror of the cab.
"you should cover your mouth you know."
"erm, yeah i did?"
"your school have got swine flu cases right?"
"not sure, but i do know Republic and Nanyang does have."
"your school have, you should know that what shouldn't you?"
"well, i don't really take note of it."
and the moment i paid for my cab fare, this nice driver immediately turned down all his windows in the car before i even opened the door. seriously, you could have waiteed for me to AT LEAST alight?
now, the Swine flu is under code red because,
it spreads fast, especially due to the fact that not only humans, but pigs and birds and dogs are potential pathogens.
we do not have a cure YET, and it mutates easily due to the vast variety of pathogens available to the virus.
HOWEVER, it has the same mortality rate as a common flu.
PLUS, we do not have a death case in Singapore.
and last but not least, when we contract a viral disease,
YES, we can die if it is highly dangerous with high mortality rates. NO, we will not die if it does not have a high mortality rate, even if it is a potential death threat. and that is ESPECIALLY true when we have a good immune system.
i don't see why you swines out there are panicking when YOU are healthy enough to act like an idiot in public. even if the news is making it a headline, talking about the rise of deaths every other day, when you think about it, if a common flu was made headlines, you would see the same content.
if you are so scared of dying, but still want to earn your freaking money, why don't you wear a BIOHAZARD HOOD instead of insulting people every other day?
so all i can say is,
stupid stupid stupid.
and FYI, Ngee Ann Polytechnic has only ONE H1N1 case. ishh.
damn the police force. damn the idiot who stole my phone anyway.
TSK!
i can't believe i was so blonde as to drop my phone and not check if i had it on me before i alighted off the bus today. i always always always checked if i had my handphone, ez-link card, wallet, and keys with me everytime i got off a bus. just so today i flustered and didn't. DAMN!
and now i hate protocols. because of some dumb protocol, i can't have my phone tracked via GPS. and so now i will definitely not get my phone back. fml man.
and as for the idiot who took my phone. thank you for entertaining me by picking up my call each time i phoned my number for an entire hour. and thank you for being such a jerk by taking the ownership of my phone.
i hope you
GO TO HELL
BURN IN HELL
STAY IN HELL
BURN MORE IN HELL
SPEND AN ETERNITY IN HELL
you bloody idiot. and damn you again for making the record of me using the most amount of profanities in a day.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i spent five minutes standing by the roadside today feeling lost and empty for i had lost my phone. my dear dear phone, which eventhough i hated so much for ALWAYS hanging, but loved so much for having that many contact numbers accumulated over the years. and my many meaningful messages as well as saved names of stupid taxi drivers which i have yet to lodge complaints against. and my entire camera album. D:
i want my phone to grow legs now and walk back home.
this can't be happening. it
must
be
a
dream.
cause i lost my alarm clock, LIFE, phone, LIFE, watch, LIFE, planner, LIFE, contact list, LIFE, diary, LIFE, camera album, and L I F E all in a day.
fucking fuck fucker fuck fuck faggot fuck.
okay that was just an excuse to use the word, not to scold anyone. HAHAHA!
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