mardi 23 juin 2009 02:40
i thank you all.
in six months and five days this blog will turn two years old.
scary how time flies by and struck you in surprise. over the past one year, no doubt the way i blogged my posts have changed.
i believe, from childish and nonsensical, to controversial (at times), crazy and mad (all the time) and most of all, more matured and sensible (which explains the few emo-screamo posts and hiatuses).
from the "liaos, lahs, lehs, lohs and huhs, and sobsobs and =.=" in nearly every sentence, to the more civilized and pleasant posts. from disgustingly tiny fonts, to disturbingly large and emphasized letters.
but one thing has not changed one bit, my stubborn and shameless need for friendship.
everyday someone tells you that, people come and go, friends can be made and forgotten. but i never believed so, or in the sense, i always lived in a fear of losing my friends, any friend that is.
when i was really young, i knew this boy. His name was Paul Sim Yong Qiang. Skinny boy at sight, funny and an entertainer at heart, always the more sensible one between us. All the other kids loved him, and he was no doubt, wittingly a people's person.
i would call him every night and we would chat the evenings away even though we hung out all the time in school. on every alternate week, we would while afternoons away at either of our houses. like brothers, we shared all our secrets among ourselves, and was always siding each other when trouble calls.
and yet, a friendship as strong and indispensable as this, was fragile and easily put behind when we went separate paths and moved on in life. so then i got sick of always keeping track with the whatever and whenever in his life, and his lack of initiation.
five, six years down the road, i spent everyday living in fear, of losing another friend, and seeing to the importance of ensuring a good friendship every time i met someone nice.
till today, i regret for giving up on preserving our friendship. because, today may be the last day you tell your friend that he or she was the greatest person who ever came into your life. and because tomorrow he or she may disappear like they were never there.
if i were to metamorphose my compunctions for this forsaken friendship, i would say that it's a burn scar that covers my entire skin, marking the regret for life in the most significant way.
so my friends, do accept my apology, for i feel a great deal of vindication for being so busy and ever more busier, as we grow old. but do know that no matter how much i change, deep down in my heart, i value each and every single one of you, for all of you makes me who i am today.
i love each and every one of my friends and i thank you all for being there all my life.
and for those who couldn't find your face in the picture, don't bother cause we have never taken a photo together anyway! lmao. but whether or not your face is in it, so long as you see me as a friend, do know that you are well-valued.
because i do too. (:
i especially love the fact that as each day goes by, our friendship grows older by a day.Libellés : :), 3040540406, ALFRED, BEST FRIENDS, great news, KART (:, khalisah, out of the blue gibberishh, poly friends, shiquan, work
