if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
mardi 6 octobre 2009 03:29
i cried over this. in the middle of the night, sounds stupid.
but yeah we are only humans. at the end of the day, we all forget our purest inner selves. we tried to achieve longevity, civilization, materialistic lives. but even animals like dogs and cats harbored stronger emotions than we do.
if the grandmother in this video was a skinny old lady, i would have probably cried throughout the night. i remembered once there was this advertisement about an old lady buying cake for her granddaughter, but she got knocked down by the car in the end. the video was majorly about road safety, but what caught my attention was, the storyline.
at the dining table, my sister and i were left speechless by the advertisement. because when we were young, our maternal grandmother who stayed with us, would always give us a dollar each to buy a cake from the neighbourhood bakery. and she would just simply watch in delight as we ate the cakes in endless smiles and kid happiness.
she died many years back, due to my uncle's idiotic behaviours back then. it was only way after her death, did my uncle finally grew up and learned to be responsible.
this is why i always liked old ladies. i always feel that i could give them the care that i never got to give my grandmother as a young man. although my paternal grandmothers are still alive and well, i don't have to fret over them as they are healthy and in good hands of my cousins. what happened with my maternal grandmother was something tragic and what i couldn't prevent because i was too young and too stupid.
for seven days at her wake, i did not cry. up until the very last second, when her coffin was pushed into the incinerator, and as i saw the flames engulf her before the door fully closed. then i cried like nobody's business.
i hope this video makes you value your grandparents. i never had the chance for mine, cause she no longer stays with me, cooks for me, tells me bedtime stories. sighs, this is why i must stop sleeping late. cause i tend to get sad in the middle of the night. even a video almost must think about my own grandmother.
the other day yiwen told me that sometimes she pities me, because my life is full of tragedies. but actually, i experience what others do as well, just that mine is more packed full of drama.
and luckily, in the dead of the night, i have people like aisyah blabbering away with me about horoscopes, where she spelt,
Pisces for Pieces.
that got me laughing. going to sentosa tomorrow, so i ought to sleep early and go in anticipation!
