mercredi 25 mars 2009 00:37
i still can't shake that feeling off me, on how i stole the show that day, on how i came out in the first place, when all i was hoping for was to be among the top three finalists.
four titles to my name, four titles that proved that my hard work paid off. but in the end, i am all alone.
i came upon a realization recently, my grades sucked, i am repeating modules yet again, i neglected some of my friends, and some of my other friends neglected me too.
everyone is busy, everyone is having their own life, now where's mine? someone told me that my life is very perfect now, but is it?
i have not seen kart for months, our first atttempted meeting was ruined by her wella photoshoot.
i have not seen qiaoyu for months either, our first attempted meeting ruined by her own over worked body taking over her during her sleep.
day by day, time jsut flies pass and while away, i am either working, or trying to prove myself at the lessons. now that i have reached the top, where will i go, where should i go? i am lost, so lost.
somebody give me a signal.
i am not allowed to take my final year project next semester, something that made me feel so excited about as it marks my coming of as a third year student at last, and the moment i told my partner about the news, her first reaction was to find herself a partner.
true, i can't blame her for being selfish, but i hate the fact that she was being so raw and realistic right in front of me, over the phone. oh well, that's the least off my mind now. whatever.
Libellés : depressing news, emo-shitzssgfsrgwg, not-so-good-news, work
