lundi 1 février 2010 03:16
the human brain is so complicated that, it can't even be simplified into a long torturous set of equations.
i will never be able to understand how one can choose to walk away from people who wants to be close with them.
i will never be able to understand how one can openly hurt his friends' feelings by exclaiming that so and so happens to be the best clique he will ever have.
i will ever more, not be able to understand how one can label the group of friends he was previously close to, as YOUR GROUP and not HIS GROUP.
what goes on in your mind, i seriously can't figure, and i simply do not wish to try any longer.
i suppose my heart and my feelings have been tremendously defeated, as round after round of friends chose to walk away from me. and of which, only one was partially my fault, where as the rest was never my fault.
i spent a really long time, pondering and reflecting, on what i have done wrong, on what i should have done and could have done.
and then it dawned upon me that, this is jsut how it is supposed to be in my life. some people were born with a silver spoon, others were born with nothing to their names.
some people were born to be blessed and well-loved by their friends and family, others were born to work hard in order to sustain even a single bond with anyone.
i'm tired, i'm really very tired.
this has been a really cruel week. an unluckily cruel week. and i thought that with the start of 2010, everything would end. but in actual fact, this was only just a beginning, when all the consequences of what has happened before starts to take form.
