if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
samedi 19 septembre 2009 01:22
as expected, being the only one left consequences in more "responsibilities".
i would not exactly say that i am being trusted since after all, i'm really just being given the "opportunity" because there's no one else to give it to, but really it only stresses me more.
the problem being that just because i'm the only one left, i'm suddenly thrown off to handle a class on my own. which is, ridunkulous.
and just when things couldn't get bad enough, there is no scapegoat for me to keep to my escape plan.
i told myself that i would get away once another course is over, when wilson has a suitable helper to assist him. but how to now when in the next two courses, i would be considered the most help that he can gather.
i'm really very weak, every week i'm told i'm weak. and now i'm so weak that i can't even firm up to walk right of the place.
i don't have the people to talk to, to rant to about my frustrations, to bitch to about the things that i find idiotic. i don't have the voice that consoles me when i'm hit, to tell me that i'm not alone mentally. and now at the looks of it, i may have to endure a whooping five months of this alone.
well, if i look on the bright side, week one has just ended. a round of applause for that.
