if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
mercredi 6 mai 2009 00:45
the weather makes me feel so irritable, so warm, so uneasy.
it's just so scary to think of what would eventually happen when it's the end of the world, the day when Earth has finally decided to give up on us comes.
Freaky, really, how nowadays i would walk down the streets and can't help but imagine people's heads exploding as the weather inclines to a murderous heat. but then again, maybe i'm just thinking too much. no wait, i AM thinking too much.
recently i have been on the low for a while, and usually times like these get worst as the end of the month draws nearer, so it just so happened that i got on the low previously at the end of the month. so then and it's really, i don't know, endearing? sweet? that some of my friends would actually mention how they have happened to chance upon my blog and noticed how upset i have been and telling me how i should take things easy.
i guess, in a way, to me, this can be rather disturbing. hahaha, because frankly, there are a lot of others out there who happen to be way worst than me, it's just that we don't see it. and that i guess, maybe it's because i rarely truly write about how i really feel and about what has been really going on around me, that i kind of have lived with it about keeping things to myself. just that, every once in a while, things will jsut accumulate to surpass my limits and induce this huge explosion of an obsessive-whining-and-i-hate-the-world-and-fuck-my-life kind of frenzy that would simply affect one or more of my friends who happen to be really innocent and clueless about it all.
and that it's probably because that i can be a real perfectionist at times that i do take notice of such little details and little gestures and that i really do appreciate them. i love my friends, close or not close, nice or mean, for being there.
