if you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change your attitude.
vendredi 13 février 2009 00:30
there was a sudden call for all immediate relatives, and the atmosphere in the visitors' lounge went chilled.
nobody spoke, nobody, until his father came out of the ward.
smiling, and asking everyone not to worry, asking everyone not to be too affected, and moving on to announce that his son has been certified brain dead.
yet he paused right before the two words, as though wishing in the very last minute, for a miracle where the doctor might just run out saying that it's all been a mistake. but eventually, he broke down in tears and desperation before he could even say anything more.
i could not take it any longer and got out of the room. rich tears were already welling up in fatin's eyes, any longer in there, and i might lose it too.
i am not a close friend, really. almost like an acquaintance, just that we often chat online in the wee hours of the morning, him constantly finding it amusing of teasing me with the name of another girl.
but i felt so much when i finally got to see him today, because he was not just lying there. my friend is still very much alive and breathing right there.
the beeping of the heart monitor filling up the room's silence.
i see his father talking to him with much affection.
i see baoren and chris praying for and blessing him.
i see shili in a total ruin, unacceptable of the outcome.
i see strangers asking him to wake up.
i see myself lost of all words on what to say to him.
but now i know what i can say, i will visit jordan again. i came across a miracle posted online, the same thing might just, no , the same thing will happen to jordan. everyone is trying very hard, i am sure he is too. miracle in LAKE ELMO, Minnesota everyone keep praying, and not lose faith at all.
