mardi 22 janvier 2008 00:18
so im online now and chatting with queenie. i had to be online since i needed to do up my maths online and talk to weisheng about the handover report PLUS send an email to pang chee boon. if not i wouldn't have come online to waste time.i would have slept on since i reached home till dawn. i am seriously tired.i don't know if you call it sick, but i am having very terrible muscle degradation at my neck and it causes a lot of headache and pain and flu and wooziness over the past few days.and now im not sure if i should just sue Ngee Ann Polytechnic for overworking their students and causing unneeded stress.
and its a good thing i decided not to provide any availability to work as i just dont have the mood nor the time to go and waste time for a place with poor management.
on the other hand, the colleagues are nice.so its kind of a balance.like you must have ying and yang so that you can have yingyang, or like, you need to have both the black tiles AND white tiles to play reversi.
anyways, so queenie and i were talking about phobias and i came to realize about how much i hate and love the fact that i am afraid of heights.its like, i hate it when my hands become clammy and i get this funny feeling when i am at a high altitude, but then again, i love that feeling when i take thrill rides.and its mostly because i love the fact that i know that i am safe, but i am still scared of heights, so i have this kind of an anxiety mixed with excitement cum fear.and its really nothing like an adrenaline rush.its more of like a psychological thing i guess.
i kind of miss secondary school again,its kind of like the class unity kind of thing.its like although we have several cliques, but we are always moving together to reach our goal as one large group. but currently, i am stuck with a class that is very divided and and most of the people are just very much focused on themselves.then again, if not for this weird behaviour of the others, i might just have not been able to get along well with my own group of friends. although sometimes i do feel like i am an outcast and that i know that we are all really close, but this kind of feelings are inevitable, its not as though we are super close like i am with my favourite 4o4, because every single individual is important and needed for a certain reason and that the reason is as simple as the fact that, any individual missing from 4o4 will just make it incomplete, unnatural and unreasonable.
i don't know, sometimes people appear in our lives for a reason, and i know i wouldn't care about that reason, because no matter if you are a nice person or a bad person, or jsut someone who is nice but pretends to have a mean approach, you are an equally important individual as compared to others. (:
the exams are coming and my schedule is tight, and i am very much sure that a lot of people are thinking that my posts are getting less "funny" as to what they put it as, and sounding more "emo-ish" and personally, STRESSED.however, i am going to loosen up by finding stupid things to talk about again, :DD.
alright, some photos from my lab lessons today.
firstly, we have the preparations for the FEHling's solution. its sounds like FEI LI (chinese for molest) but has this nice blue colouration.on top of that, you must be absolutely accurate in your mixture's proportion to prepare it, if not you will end up with weird precipitations.
and then i added the ingredients and everything nice.alright, now its the disgusting part, LOOK AT THE NUMBER 6!! its coconut milk and its like vomit.or it just looks like someone spitted in the test tube.and whats worst is whats next.
coconut milk precipitate mutated.and it looks like some explode brain matter in the test tube.i know, its not very clear, but trust me, you wouldn't have wanted to take a closer look. i bet regina would have vomited at the sight of this.and then again, its just disgusting.
anyways, i kind of find care bears disturbing. they are weirdest creatures that feed on mutated happiness.somehow,one way or another, they just get their stomaches satisfied by popping rainbows and clover leaves out of their stomaches.and to my amazement, they are actually happy to use it on one another and do weird things during some weird scenarios.and they are always this happy.its just like how i dislike Mr Happy. because ,although im not trying t be a pessimist or what, but how is it possible that someone is happy for 24/7 constantly, and smiling and looking so disgustingly un-sad.i mean, can you imagine if Mr Happy's mum dies and he still smiles and be happy.or if one of the care bears died and the other care bears simply hop around happily like some lunatics and do some dancing and singing to erm, mourn for the deceased care bear.its just so freaky.its like the teletubies thing all over again.and its sick.its like weird.i don't know.but i just cannot imagine people laughing and enjoying themselves during a funeral, let allow dance and be jolly PLUS project rainbows and clover leaves out of their tummies like idiots.its just so weird and stupid.no offense, but its just weirdd and dumb.and stupid.and idiotic.and sick.and whatever.
good night.sleep tight.
